The other Sunday I was talking to my friend while she was being a greeter at church. As we stand by the doors embracing the cold weather a family walked in. The family consisted of parents and one small child. The child was around four or five. This little boy was bundled up with a winter coat hood and gloves. His hood covered most of his face, all you saw as a little pink nose sticking out. One parent held his left hand and the other held his right hand. They were leading him through the building his eyes fixed on his feet because that was all he could see. This little boy was trusting his parents to get him from point A to point B without getting hurt.
What trust this little boys has. What trust most children have for their parents. What kind of faith and trust does God call us to have.
Matthew 18:1-4 At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefor, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."
I know I have trouble with this. There are to many things in this world that makes it hard to trust God. We are jaded, cynical, depressed, etc nation. But, remember this boy, or any child, how they wholeheartedly trust their parents.
Remember we have a Father in heaven, who will lead us from point A to point B, making sure we don't fall. We might stumble and trip but God is holding our hands, and he his there to keep us from falling down.
What a merciful and gracious God we have. You are Loved!!
Peace
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
For the Glory of God
Sometimes, I ask God, "What about me?", "Why did this happen to me?" "Why me?" Sometimes I sit and look at prayers and I ask myself to whom am I praying to. Am I praying to a "Santa Calus" or to a God that is only job is to please me. Who am I that I should ask these questions. We are his creation, who are we to tell the creator how to do his job. I have started reading Exodus. Exodus is a great narrative. When God tells Moses why he is hardening Pharaoh's heart. The reason is so that the Israelites will know that when they are rescued from the oppression of Egypt is because of God and him alone. Every time God told Moses what to say to Pharaoh and Israel God always said it was so that he would gain the glory.
Reading this was a humbling experience. Everything good and bad is the for the glory of God. It reminds us that everything we do is for the glory of God. Our lives should be lived to the glory of God. it is about him not us.
In our culture it is hard to remember this. We are faced with a culture that wants us to put our needs and wants first. 1 Corinthians 10:24 "No one should seek his own good, but the good of others." This concept is foreign to us. We have to look at how we live daily and see how we are looking for God's glory, and not seeking the good of others.
As a nanny, a housekeeper, a chef, and sometimes a mentor I am constantly thinking what is the best for the family. Sometimes that decision is I spend more time with the boys than cleaning the house that day.
For the glory of God. Hard yes, but we must start seeking the good of others before our own. Again... Hard yes...
Peace
Reading this was a humbling experience. Everything good and bad is the for the glory of God. It reminds us that everything we do is for the glory of God. Our lives should be lived to the glory of God. it is about him not us.
In our culture it is hard to remember this. We are faced with a culture that wants us to put our needs and wants first. 1 Corinthians 10:24 "No one should seek his own good, but the good of others." This concept is foreign to us. We have to look at how we live daily and see how we are looking for God's glory, and not seeking the good of others.
As a nanny, a housekeeper, a chef, and sometimes a mentor I am constantly thinking what is the best for the family. Sometimes that decision is I spend more time with the boys than cleaning the house that day.
For the glory of God. Hard yes, but we must start seeking the good of others before our own. Again... Hard yes...
Peace
Sunday, November 21, 2010
City Living
Okay, I know I do not live in the city. But, i am there a lot and really want to live in the city. One major reason is public transportation. It would be so much cheaper if I lived in the city. I would have to leave earlier for places but I am perfectly okay with that. Because I can sit on a train or bus and read a book, instead of driving and having to pay attention to the road. Well, I guess I could read a book and drive, but I am not looking to get into any accidents anytime soon. :)
I have seen apartments over different stores and here is a few that I would not mind living above.
1. Whole Foods
2. Coffee Shop
3. Bakery
4. Church
5. Sushi
I will have to keep adding to this list but right now this is all I got.
I have seen apartments over different stores and here is a few that I would not mind living above.
1. Whole Foods
2. Coffee Shop
3. Bakery
4. Church
5. Sushi
I will have to keep adding to this list but right now this is all I got.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Our Father's Love for Us
Almost everyday I have to tell one of the boys that we (their parents and I) discipline them because we love them, and because we want that bad behavior to end. Oh how God uses being a parent/caregiver to reveal himself. God loves us so much. We will never be able to understand how vast his love is. Christ like love is thought being ridiculous and strange in the world. In Francis Chan's Crazy Love he reminds us of October 2006, the shooting that happened in am Amish school near Lancaster, Pennsylvania. I remember this happening. But, out of that horrible event, that Amish community showed the nation if not the world a true Christ like love. Parent of the girls who, were killed went to the shooter's parents and forgave them and their son.
The parents forgave their child's murderer. Do you understand that. Could you do that? Could I do that?
Generally, I can forgive things that happen to me. If you call me names, beat me, etc. I can forgive you. But, mess with my friends or my family there will be some consequences. I can not understand that love, that compassion those families have. I pray that in a situation like that God would give me the strength to do what those parents did. But, I also pray that I will not be put into that situation.
Anyways to get back on the track of how much God loves us and disciplines us. So I tell the boys we do this because we want that specific behavior to end.
At the moment I am studying 1 Corinthians. Today, I read chapter 11. Paul is talking about worship and how we should approach God in praising him. He begins this chapter talking about covered and uncovered heads during prayer. In the end of his discussion he tells the church to judge for itself about a woman having her head covered during prayer, and a man having his hair uncovered during prayer. I do not know how this applies today. I will leave that for smarter people than me. But, after he talks about this Paul goes into another issue the church in Corinth is dealing with. Verse 17 Paul states that he has no reason to praise the church for their meetings. When they meet there is division. The divisions are rooted in proving who has the approval of God. I kind of see a "one upping" kind of division, by what Paul writes.
But also Paul gets into the Lord's Supper. People were not recognizing the significance of the Lord's Supper. Paul retells the story of when Jesus gave the bread and the wine to his disciples. Paul tells us that we much examine ourselves before we take part in the Lord's Supper. Paul also says that people have not been doing this because there are so many weak, sick and asleep people. Now if we can figure out if that means spiritually or physically. I mean, who knows there could have been beds of people just sleeping for months at a time. :) My guess I would say spiritually sick , weak and asleep.
Oh but hope!!! If we judge ourselves before we partake in the Lord's Supper we will not come under judgement.
11:32 is where the conversations with the boys comes in.
"When we are judged by the Lord we are being disciplined so that we will not be condemned with the world" Is this not a Father's love for is children. When God disciplines us, he does it so that the bad behavior will end, and that we will not be condemned with the people of the world.
So the next question is, "How does God discipline us?" Does he count to three and then our toys get taken away? Does he send us to our room when we back talk and argue with him? Does he force us to go places or do things we do not want to do? I would say yes to all three.
The follow up question: Is God disciplining you? Or on the other hand, How is God rewarding you for your faithfulness?
God is the only sustainer. We have nothing without him because everything comes from him.
Think it over.....
Shalom
The parents forgave their child's murderer. Do you understand that. Could you do that? Could I do that?
Generally, I can forgive things that happen to me. If you call me names, beat me, etc. I can forgive you. But, mess with my friends or my family there will be some consequences. I can not understand that love, that compassion those families have. I pray that in a situation like that God would give me the strength to do what those parents did. But, I also pray that I will not be put into that situation.
Anyways to get back on the track of how much God loves us and disciplines us. So I tell the boys we do this because we want that specific behavior to end.
At the moment I am studying 1 Corinthians. Today, I read chapter 11. Paul is talking about worship and how we should approach God in praising him. He begins this chapter talking about covered and uncovered heads during prayer. In the end of his discussion he tells the church to judge for itself about a woman having her head covered during prayer, and a man having his hair uncovered during prayer. I do not know how this applies today. I will leave that for smarter people than me. But, after he talks about this Paul goes into another issue the church in Corinth is dealing with. Verse 17 Paul states that he has no reason to praise the church for their meetings. When they meet there is division. The divisions are rooted in proving who has the approval of God. I kind of see a "one upping" kind of division, by what Paul writes.
But also Paul gets into the Lord's Supper. People were not recognizing the significance of the Lord's Supper. Paul retells the story of when Jesus gave the bread and the wine to his disciples. Paul tells us that we much examine ourselves before we take part in the Lord's Supper. Paul also says that people have not been doing this because there are so many weak, sick and asleep people. Now if we can figure out if that means spiritually or physically. I mean, who knows there could have been beds of people just sleeping for months at a time. :) My guess I would say spiritually sick , weak and asleep.
Oh but hope!!! If we judge ourselves before we partake in the Lord's Supper we will not come under judgement.
11:32 is where the conversations with the boys comes in.
"When we are judged by the Lord we are being disciplined so that we will not be condemned with the world" Is this not a Father's love for is children. When God disciplines us, he does it so that the bad behavior will end, and that we will not be condemned with the people of the world.
So the next question is, "How does God discipline us?" Does he count to three and then our toys get taken away? Does he send us to our room when we back talk and argue with him? Does he force us to go places or do things we do not want to do? I would say yes to all three.
The follow up question: Is God disciplining you? Or on the other hand, How is God rewarding you for your faithfulness?
God is the only sustainer. We have nothing without him because everything comes from him.
Think it over.....
Shalom
Sunday, November 14, 2010
TEDS
Last week I visited Trinity International University. This place is everything I have been looking for in a Graduate School. Great academics and a focus on spiritual formation. The schools focus on community is on its way to being the community that God calls us to be.(So I have been told by current students.) One thing I know is that speaking to the Spiritual Formation Advisor Lisa Sung at lunch and sitting in on a class with Dr. Johnson was enough for me to decide that I really want to go to this school.
Now, all I have to do is take the Millers Analogy Test, send in my transcripts and get my last recommendation in. So hopefully by the February I will know if I was accepted or not. The bad thing is, I want to be a student now. All in good time, I was reminded of that today. (Thank you Mr. Tyer) Now I wait and pray.
Five years ago when I walked onto Gardner-Webb's campus I would not have thought that I would be applying to Graduate School with the intention on getting my PhD. No way. It is amazing how God changes us. With the Duel Degree program I might be in Graduate School for 4-5 years. 4-5 years in the cold of North Chicagoland, studying and writing papers. I think I am okay with that. God knows.
Remember: YOU ARE LOVED!!!!
Now, all I have to do is take the Millers Analogy Test, send in my transcripts and get my last recommendation in. So hopefully by the February I will know if I was accepted or not. The bad thing is, I want to be a student now. All in good time, I was reminded of that today. (Thank you Mr. Tyer) Now I wait and pray.
Five years ago when I walked onto Gardner-Webb's campus I would not have thought that I would be applying to Graduate School with the intention on getting my PhD. No way. It is amazing how God changes us. With the Duel Degree program I might be in Graduate School for 4-5 years. 4-5 years in the cold of North Chicagoland, studying and writing papers. I think I am okay with that. God knows.
Remember: YOU ARE LOVED!!!!
Generosity
I recently finished a study of Matthew. It has been so long since I have read Matthew and the other Gospels. Reading about Christ's life left me challenged and encouraged. The other day I was sitting in Starbuck, and reading and God popped this thought into my head.(I know Starbucks is evil, lol but there are no independent coffee shops where I live) The thought was about people who have accepted Christ right before they pass away. A person on his or her death bed, accepts Christ as his or hers Lord and Savior, repents from their sin and dies soon after. If he accepted Christ then he is now our brother in Christ. Praise God, he is now in heaven.
I have the feeling that people do not think this is fair. I think people who have accepted Christ at a young age feel that they deserve more because they have lived a life serving God.
Jesus gives us a parable to correct this feeling of entitlement. Matthew 20 "The Workers in the Vineyard" Basically the farmer comes to workers at different times and hires them to work in his vineyard. At the end of the day when it is time to pay wages the last people were given their payment first. The workers received a full days pay. The workers who worked all day came to the farmer expected to get paid more than a days pay, they thought they deserved more, if the workers who only worked a few hours received a full days wages.
The farmer asks them, “But he answered one of them, ‘I am not being unfair to you, friend. Didn’t you agree to work for a denarius? 14 Take your pay and go. I want to give the one who was hired last the same as I gave you. Don’t I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?’ Matt 20: 13-15
So the question to us is, "How is God being unfair to us?" He's not. He has given us all we need. And no matter if we are called early in live or minutes before our death, the prize is the same. No matter when people accept Christ we need to celebrate that one more person will be with us in heaven. Praise God!!
It is not unfair that people can live their life without knowing God until the very end. I think we have it pretty awesome. We have the hope of Christ. We have a common bond that cannot be broken no matter who tries to separate us. We have the honor of living our lives as Christ has called us to live. Yes, that means we have suffering, pain and heartache. But, we have the hope that the trials of this life are only temporary and His joy comes in the morning. Praise God.
Praise God when there is a new believer, no matter what point of their life he accepts. There is one more of God's children in heaven. One down and a few billion to go...
I have the feeling that people do not think this is fair. I think people who have accepted Christ at a young age feel that they deserve more because they have lived a life serving God.
Jesus gives us a parable to correct this feeling of entitlement. Matthew 20 "The Workers in the Vineyard" Basically the farmer comes to workers at different times and hires them to work in his vineyard. At the end of the day when it is time to pay wages the last people were given their payment first. The workers received a full days pay. The workers who worked all day came to the farmer expected to get paid more than a days pay, they thought they deserved more, if the workers who only worked a few hours received a full days wages.
The farmer asks them, “But he answered one of them, ‘I am not being unfair to you, friend. Didn’t you agree to work for a denarius? 14 Take your pay and go. I want to give the one who was hired last the same as I gave you. Don’t I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?’ Matt 20: 13-15
So the question to us is, "How is God being unfair to us?" He's not. He has given us all we need. And no matter if we are called early in live or minutes before our death, the prize is the same. No matter when people accept Christ we need to celebrate that one more person will be with us in heaven. Praise God!!
It is not unfair that people can live their life without knowing God until the very end. I think we have it pretty awesome. We have the hope of Christ. We have a common bond that cannot be broken no matter who tries to separate us. We have the honor of living our lives as Christ has called us to live. Yes, that means we have suffering, pain and heartache. But, we have the hope that the trials of this life are only temporary and His joy comes in the morning. Praise God.
Praise God when there is a new believer, no matter what point of their life he accepts. There is one more of God's children in heaven. One down and a few billion to go...
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Coffee, Grilled Cheese, and Breadsticks.
Yes, I am categorizing this past Sunday by the some of the food I ate. I could include the 3 orange slices and the half a bagel, and the burrito I ate for dinner, but that would of been a little superfluous. :) Sunday began well. I got up and left around 8 to pick up Jessica for Church. We went to NewLife Lincoln Park. NewLife began with Pastor Mark Jobe, and he was the one who preaches Sunday Mornings at Lincoln Park. I was fed once again. This is twice now I have been spiritually fed. After church there is a Coffee Connection, where I had some apple cider and orange slices. Jessica and I talked to a girl we met at the 20 something small group. Afterwards we walked to Savor the Flavor. A local coffee shop and ice cream parlor. We sat drank coffee and then...I had one of the most amazing Grilled Cheese sandwiches I have ever had. I had a cheddar, pepper jack, bacon, sun dried tomato, sandwich with a side of carrots. How amazing is that. Oh and it was on multi-grain bread as well. So we talked, had lunch, and then left to go to our friends house to watch the Bears game. OMG it was a depressing game, but a great time with friends. We decided to be the cast of Community if we all go to a Halloween Party. I would be Brita. So basically I have to dye my hair and curl it. But, we would not have an Abed or a Senor Chang, very depressing. Anyways During the game we all talked about anything but the football game. It was a little too painful to discuss. But, I had some breadsticks when the pizza was delivered.
After the game I dropped a few people off at their house and then Jess and I went to dinner at Chipotle. Yummy in my Tummy:) We had a good time talking, and laughed at me trying to get into the bathroom. To use the bathroom you have to be buzzed in. Okay sure, but the buzzer was not working. Not cool at all. I had to ask two employees to buzz me in. And the bathroom was not that clean either. Again, a disappointing situation, but disappointment was covered with the laughter of trying to get into the bathroom. :)
Peace
After the game I dropped a few people off at their house and then Jess and I went to dinner at Chipotle. Yummy in my Tummy:) We had a good time talking, and laughed at me trying to get into the bathroom. To use the bathroom you have to be buzzed in. Okay sure, but the buzzer was not working. Not cool at all. I had to ask two employees to buzz me in. And the bathroom was not that clean either. Again, a disappointing situation, but disappointment was covered with the laughter of trying to get into the bathroom. :)
Peace
Family Connections
Saturday was a good day. The boys and I got ready for their swimming class but drove to the school and found out that swimming was canceled. So we drove back to the house played and had lunch. After lunch we walked to the park. This park was covered in leaves. As we were walking the sidewalk was covered with leaves. It was fantastic. We would stop occasionally and play in the leaves on the way to the park. We arrived at the park and continued to play in the mounds of leaves all over. It has been one of my favorite days of watching the kids. I love fall, and they were having so much fun with just playing in God's creation. The only bad thing is that I did not have my camera. I kicked myself over and over while we were playing. I finished working at 4:00. I changed clothes and got in the car for a lovely drive into the city. I dislike driving I have decided. It took me almost an hour to get to my cousin's place. I cannot do that every time I want to go into the city. I need to use the Metra but that will only get me so far. After the Metra I would have to take buses and walk to my cousin's condo, or the other option is Wes comes and picks me up at Union Station. The Metra might take about the same time but at least I can read a book or something.
Anyways, So Saturday I met my cousin Wes. We have not seen each other in about 10 years. Okay Jessica 10 years ago. I was 13 short chubby extremely dark hair. I really do not look much like I do now. Now, I am 5'11" lighter redder hair, grown up looking 23 year old. And that is only what happens physically after 10 years. I am a completely different person then I was when I was 13, Praise God for his molding hands forming me into who he wants me to be.
We went to Gino's for dinner. This was my second time going downtown and eating Chicago deep dish pizza. Talking to Wes was like we just saw each other last week, not the 10 years that it has been. We talked about family, jobs, past experiences and a whole bunch of other things. We learned about each other's family into more detail and each other. It was crazy of how much I did not know about what he has done in his life. But, there is some lack of information that would happen between cousins who are 6 years apart. I mean he started college when I was in middle school. But I guess when you hit your 20s age difference is not as obvious.
God is faithful and always provides what we need. Look at the birds in the air, they do not sow and reap and store away for tomorrow. Their father in heaven feeds them. "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life." Matthew 6:26-27
Anyways, So Saturday I met my cousin Wes. We have not seen each other in about 10 years. Okay Jessica 10 years ago. I was 13 short chubby extremely dark hair. I really do not look much like I do now. Now, I am 5'11" lighter redder hair, grown up looking 23 year old. And that is only what happens physically after 10 years. I am a completely different person then I was when I was 13, Praise God for his molding hands forming me into who he wants me to be.
We went to Gino's for dinner. This was my second time going downtown and eating Chicago deep dish pizza. Talking to Wes was like we just saw each other last week, not the 10 years that it has been. We talked about family, jobs, past experiences and a whole bunch of other things. We learned about each other's family into more detail and each other. It was crazy of how much I did not know about what he has done in his life. But, there is some lack of information that would happen between cousins who are 6 years apart. I mean he started college when I was in middle school. But I guess when you hit your 20s age difference is not as obvious.
God is faithful and always provides what we need. Look at the birds in the air, they do not sow and reap and store away for tomorrow. Their father in heaven feeds them. "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life." Matthew 6:26-27
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Wanted By God
Last Friday I went to a Small Group for 20 somethings in Lincoln Park with Jessica. So I have found out that Jessica has become like my best friend here in Chicago, for a few reasons:
1. She is only 4 months younger than me.
2. One of few people I know in the city.
3. She is easily one of the coolest people I know.
4. The most important. She shares the coolest and the most common name of 1987 with me. :)
Anyways, she has been such a help. I have gone so many places and not alone. I still have not gone into the city, downtown as much but I have gone enough places that my time off allows. Friday we went to Lincoln Park. The small group is going through this book called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan.
Let me tell you. So far this book is fantastic. Chapter 1 God's Power and being in awe of it. Chapter 2 Living every moment like it is your last for the glory of God. Chapter 3. God's crazy love for us. Friday we talk about God's love so I have not continued the book so far. But, so far so good.
It is hard to understand why God loves us and the amount of his love. I cannot completely understand why God loves us. I know he loves us as his creation and as his children but it i am dumbfounded when I try to understand why. But, despite ourselves God loves us. Praise him. But, more than his love he wants us. He wants us. Let me say it again. GOD THE FATHER WANTS US. He wants me as I am. The broken, emotional wreck, weakling that I am. He wants me. I am in awe, to be wanted for my weaknesses.
We are wanted by God. God's love is forever. We cannot even understand that. FOREVER. We are sometimes focused on today, or the week. We forget that there is a bigger picture than the time frame we can understand. There has been the thousands of years in the past, and now our time now and then the maybe thousands of years to come. We are only a page on in the book, maybe even just a paragraph, or even a sentence. How great is our fathers love for us.
Father, I am in awe of who you are. You are the creator, the beginning and the end, you are greater than any other name. Yet, you sent your son to be born, fully human and fully God. Jesus suffered as we suffer, was tempted as we are tempted and he did not sin. He stands blameless. By your grace his death has taken the punishment away from your fallen children. Those who believe how have the defense of Jesus on our side. Those who know Christ also know you. When you call us home we will spend eternity in heaven praising you for who you are. God you are love. Any good I do is only because of the Spirit you have given me. I am weak, broken. But, you put the pieces together and give me strength. In Christ I am strong. In Christ, I have power over death. In Christ I live. Amen
I do not know where this little saying came about, maybe from a youth event or something. But, ChristIAN... without Christ I Am Nothing. I think that is a cool little way to be reminded that all we are is only because of Christ.
Peace
1. She is only 4 months younger than me.
2. One of few people I know in the city.
3. She is easily one of the coolest people I know.
4. The most important. She shares the coolest and the most common name of 1987 with me. :)
Anyways, she has been such a help. I have gone so many places and not alone. I still have not gone into the city, downtown as much but I have gone enough places that my time off allows. Friday we went to Lincoln Park. The small group is going through this book called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan.
Let me tell you. So far this book is fantastic. Chapter 1 God's Power and being in awe of it. Chapter 2 Living every moment like it is your last for the glory of God. Chapter 3. God's crazy love for us. Friday we talk about God's love so I have not continued the book so far. But, so far so good. It is hard to understand why God loves us and the amount of his love. I cannot completely understand why God loves us. I know he loves us as his creation and as his children but it i am dumbfounded when I try to understand why. But, despite ourselves God loves us. Praise him. But, more than his love he wants us. He wants us. Let me say it again. GOD THE FATHER WANTS US. He wants me as I am. The broken, emotional wreck, weakling that I am. He wants me. I am in awe, to be wanted for my weaknesses.
We are wanted by God. God's love is forever. We cannot even understand that. FOREVER. We are sometimes focused on today, or the week. We forget that there is a bigger picture than the time frame we can understand. There has been the thousands of years in the past, and now our time now and then the maybe thousands of years to come. We are only a page on in the book, maybe even just a paragraph, or even a sentence. How great is our fathers love for us.
Father, I am in awe of who you are. You are the creator, the beginning and the end, you are greater than any other name. Yet, you sent your son to be born, fully human and fully God. Jesus suffered as we suffer, was tempted as we are tempted and he did not sin. He stands blameless. By your grace his death has taken the punishment away from your fallen children. Those who believe how have the defense of Jesus on our side. Those who know Christ also know you. When you call us home we will spend eternity in heaven praising you for who you are. God you are love. Any good I do is only because of the Spirit you have given me. I am weak, broken. But, you put the pieces together and give me strength. In Christ I am strong. In Christ, I have power over death. In Christ I live. Amen
I do not know where this little saying came about, maybe from a youth event or something. But, ChristIAN... without Christ I Am Nothing. I think that is a cool little way to be reminded that all we are is only because of Christ.
Peace
Sunday, October 3, 2010
I'm not in North Carolina Anymore
So this week the weather as has been pretty great. But with the weekend came wind and rain that I have not experienced in a long time. In the morning I was able to use my knowledge of American Religious Groups when two very cute old men walked up the path and began to talk to the boys and me.
Old man one, "Good Morning."
Me, "Good Morning."
OM1 "It is nice to see a mother working with her children on a project." At the time the boys and I were working on paper mache on the front porch.
"Oh... I am not their mother I am their nanny, I am too young to have children."
OM1 "Excuse me, well you are probably wondering, 'Who are these two old men and what do they want?' well we are from the Watchtower Society and we come around twice a year..."
So I originally thought these men were from some Veteran’s organization but nope, these cute old men were Jehovah Witnesses, bummer.
The men continued they’re informing me why people do bad things. I thought it was because of when Adam and Eve ate of the fruit sin entered the world and until Christ returns we will be in a world of pain and suffering. But apparently it’s not our fault it is only the devil that does bad things. I mean I am pretty sure I have done some pretty bad things without the influence of the devil.
God I pray that your truth finds these men and their fellow Jehovah Witnesses.
As the day continued the wind got stronger, well it did at least to me. The boys seemed to hardly notice. But it felt like November. Luckily I was able to stay inside for most of the day when the boys were out playing with neighbors. Praise God for neighbors!
The day ended with rain and less wind and a cup of hot apple cider with a group of friends. :) Oh and it was my first game night in roughly 5 months.
Old man one, "Good Morning."
Me, "Good Morning."
OM1 "It is nice to see a mother working with her children on a project." At the time the boys and I were working on paper mache on the front porch.
"Oh... I am not their mother I am their nanny, I am too young to have children."
OM1 "Excuse me, well you are probably wondering, 'Who are these two old men and what do they want?' well we are from the Watchtower Society and we come around twice a year..."
So I originally thought these men were from some Veteran’s organization but nope, these cute old men were Jehovah Witnesses, bummer.
The men continued they’re informing me why people do bad things. I thought it was because of when Adam and Eve ate of the fruit sin entered the world and until Christ returns we will be in a world of pain and suffering. But apparently it’s not our fault it is only the devil that does bad things. I mean I am pretty sure I have done some pretty bad things without the influence of the devil.
God I pray that your truth finds these men and their fellow Jehovah Witnesses.
As the day continued the wind got stronger, well it did at least to me. The boys seemed to hardly notice. But it felt like November. Luckily I was able to stay inside for most of the day when the boys were out playing with neighbors. Praise God for neighbors!
The day ended with rain and less wind and a cup of hot apple cider with a group of friends. :) Oh and it was my first game night in roughly 5 months.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Disappointing Day Redeemed by God's Faithfulness.
So this past weekend was kind of disappointing. I was suppose to go to the Arthur Guinness Day but friends did not want to go and then I realized I did not have the money to spend on the entry fee and then food and drinks. The neighbor across the street asked me to feed their dogs with the time to be away from the boys. So God in his faithfulness gave me the opportunity to be alone and get some stuff done.
Friday, the boys and I went to the park and Kinga was there again. We talked and then she invited me to go with her to the Harvest Crusade on Sunday. I have been to one before so I was not planning on going but I do not know yet if I am going to go. Her friend came who is also Polish and she is a nanny for 3 girls. It was really nice to meet here but we had to go because the boys had to get ready to go to martial arts.
Saturday: After work, I still worked... well sort of. I went with Maria and the boys bowling. We went to a place that was a little bit more expensive because the food was better. But, I do not know how this happened but the power went out when we started the second game. So, we left during the power outage and got free food, and our 6 games for free. How amazing is that. Everything ended up being free, except my shoe rental. I paid 4 dollars for plenty of food, and a game of bowling. Amazing!!!!! Praise God for the Power outage. But, also sad day for Pinstripes. After we left we went to NickelCity. Amazing, all these arcade games for 20 cents. It was great and the kids loved it. Maria dropped me off at the house so I could go and feed the dogs and have time to be alone, while her and the boys went out for ice cream and went to take care of the other house.
I sat and wrote letters, and almost fell asleep while writing them. Afterwards when I was about to leave, the family's son came home. Saturday was his birthday so now he is 24. We talked for a while about Religion to Beer. It was so nice to have a conversation with someone other than a 5 or 7 year old. Yet another proof of God's faithfulness and his work in people's lives.
Even when we plan something God knows what we really need and will change our plans according to his plan. I pray that one day my plan will reflect his plan for my life.
Friday, the boys and I went to the park and Kinga was there again. We talked and then she invited me to go with her to the Harvest Crusade on Sunday. I have been to one before so I was not planning on going but I do not know yet if I am going to go. Her friend came who is also Polish and she is a nanny for 3 girls. It was really nice to meet here but we had to go because the boys had to get ready to go to martial arts.
Saturday: After work, I still worked... well sort of. I went with Maria and the boys bowling. We went to a place that was a little bit more expensive because the food was better. But, I do not know how this happened but the power went out when we started the second game. So, we left during the power outage and got free food, and our 6 games for free. How amazing is that. Everything ended up being free, except my shoe rental. I paid 4 dollars for plenty of food, and a game of bowling. Amazing!!!!! Praise God for the Power outage. But, also sad day for Pinstripes. After we left we went to NickelCity. Amazing, all these arcade games for 20 cents. It was great and the kids loved it. Maria dropped me off at the house so I could go and feed the dogs and have time to be alone, while her and the boys went out for ice cream and went to take care of the other house.
I sat and wrote letters, and almost fell asleep while writing them. Afterwards when I was about to leave, the family's son came home. Saturday was his birthday so now he is 24. We talked for a while about Religion to Beer. It was so nice to have a conversation with someone other than a 5 or 7 year old. Yet another proof of God's faithfulness and his work in people's lives.
Even when we plan something God knows what we really need and will change our plans according to his plan. I pray that one day my plan will reflect his plan for my life.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Sisters in Christ
The past few weeks have been challenging. I have been getting over a cold and the kids have also been sick. Finally I am over it and so are the kids. So we are in good health just in time for flu season. God has been faithful when I haven't been. He continues to provide for my needs. The other day I needed to find a friend in Glenview and I met a 35 year old mother with two adorable little boys and after a moments of conversation I found out that she is a believer. The funny thing is, the first thing she said to me was, "Are you British?" How funny is that. I have not been asked if I was British since Middle School. I mean, while working at Broad River Coffee Company I had someone ask me what country I was from because he did not recognize my mix of Mid-Western and Southern accent. But, after we began to talk, we have become friends. It is amazing the bond that is automatically formed when two believers come together. Her name is Kinga and she is Polish. I so want to know Polish now. All I know is how to say "Good day, thank you and yes." But for her 18 month old who began giving me his toys and then scooping sand into my hand, All I needed to say was "Thank you."
Praise God for his faithfulness.
Praise God for his faithfulness.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Sick Kids and a Sick Nanny
Saturday night the parents had a date night, which I highly encouraged. So I worked a split shift on Saturday, 10-3 and 5-9ish. The boys and I were suppose to go bowling and then go to Nickel City. Nickel City is an arcade place that uses only nickels. After bowling we began our way from Niles to Northbrook. We were on Waukegan Road and Logan got sick. At least we are only minutes from home.
We drove home and got him into the bath and set him on the couch. Within twenty minutes Logan was asleep. I carried him up stairs and he was so tired he did not even care he was moved. Lucas was not a fan of the situation but he was good enough to understand.
Sunday Logan felt fine in the morning and then crashed in the afternoon. He did not go to school on Monday. Luckily Maria does not work on Mondays. I was able to still go to the gym and I even gave blood that afternoon. I waited over a year to give blood again. I had to wait until August 15 of this year to give blood again. Now I only have to wait another 56 days to give blood.
When I got back from giving blood Lucas questioned me about what it means to give blood and why people do it. It was a nice chance to tell him how we can help one another.
Tuesday everyone went to school and everything was fine, but Tuesday night Lucas became sick. He ended up not going to school on Wednesday. That was not part of the plan. I had to work now at 8:30 instead of 11:30, which means no gym and no power nap afterwards.
Wednesday I woke up with a stuffy nose. And today it was worse. I think it could be allergies but it also could be a cold. I am unsure at the moment. Pray that I will be getting better. I have not gone to the gym in the past two days and I hope I will be able to go tomorrow morning.
I have Saturday off thankfully. It is suppose to rain, but if it doesn’t I hope to go on a nice bike ride, but I also do not know how I will be feeling. We shall see. ☺
Peace and Love
We drove home and got him into the bath and set him on the couch. Within twenty minutes Logan was asleep. I carried him up stairs and he was so tired he did not even care he was moved. Lucas was not a fan of the situation but he was good enough to understand.
Sunday Logan felt fine in the morning and then crashed in the afternoon. He did not go to school on Monday. Luckily Maria does not work on Mondays. I was able to still go to the gym and I even gave blood that afternoon. I waited over a year to give blood again. I had to wait until August 15 of this year to give blood again. Now I only have to wait another 56 days to give blood.
When I got back from giving blood Lucas questioned me about what it means to give blood and why people do it. It was a nice chance to tell him how we can help one another.
Tuesday everyone went to school and everything was fine, but Tuesday night Lucas became sick. He ended up not going to school on Wednesday. That was not part of the plan. I had to work now at 8:30 instead of 11:30, which means no gym and no power nap afterwards.
Wednesday I woke up with a stuffy nose. And today it was worse. I think it could be allergies but it also could be a cold. I am unsure at the moment. Pray that I will be getting better. I have not gone to the gym in the past two days and I hope I will be able to go tomorrow morning.
I have Saturday off thankfully. It is suppose to rain, but if it doesn’t I hope to go on a nice bike ride, but I also do not know how I will be feeling. We shall see. ☺
Peace and Love
Labor Day Photos
Here are a couple of the few photos I took at the beach at Gary Indiana. Enjoy
Wandering Water Bottle - Gary Indiana
Here are some of the people I go to church with. I will also be part of a small group which some of the people attend too.
Wandering Water Bottle - Gary Indiana
Here are some of the people I go to church with. I will also be part of a small group which some of the people attend too.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Comparisons
One thing I had a hard time dealing with as a kid was comparing myself to my sister. In High School I even took AP US History for a semester because I thought I would do well in it. I was wrong and was moved to a Honors US History class instead, where my grades were better and I had a much better time. Now I look back at that situation as a blessing from God, redeeming my weaknesses and providing a place for me to flourish.
I still struggle with comparisons sometimes. But no longer is it with my sister because I have been able to realize that she has much more book smarts than I do. That is how God made her and I have common sense and more patience and grace for others. The comparisons I struggle with is between fellow believers. Sometimes I might think they are better at praying than I am, or they seem to be part of the community more than I do. It is really silly but it happens. These feelings are a result of our insecurities. I do not know if we are born with this idea of comparing ourselves to each other. To an extent I think it is reasonable because you see someone else praying more, and you can be encouraged to do so. At least that is how it works for me. But, we have to keep in mind we do not begin to pray more to become a better than that person. It is not a competition.
I do think the insecurities that we face as adults root from our environment when we were growing up.
Paul reminds us to have sober judgement of ourselves. Romans 12:3. Paul's warning is not to think of us to highly of ourselves. Another word for sober can be sane. Sane judgement, not tho highly but also not to lowly. We think that only thinking highly of ourselves is wrong. That pride is sin. Yes to an extent, an over flowing amount of pride for what you do and not what God is doing I would say that is wrong. For we can only boast in Christ and him alone.
But, I also think when we do not have sane judgement and we think too lowly we are also doing wrong. We are sons and daughters of the God Almighty. We have been created in his image, God thought we were worthy enough for him to send his only son to die on the cross, so that we may be reconciled with him. We are worthy. We have to remember these things when be think lowly of ourselves.
Like my sister and I, we are different people and God gave me different gifts from her, the body of Christ is the same. There are different gifts and one is not better than the other. And as a community we are suppose to help each other to find these gifts and put them to use for the edification of each other for the praise and worship of Christ.
So remember, sane judgement, do not think to highly or to lowly of ourselves. We are loved in spite of who we are.
I still struggle with comparisons sometimes. But no longer is it with my sister because I have been able to realize that she has much more book smarts than I do. That is how God made her and I have common sense and more patience and grace for others. The comparisons I struggle with is between fellow believers. Sometimes I might think they are better at praying than I am, or they seem to be part of the community more than I do. It is really silly but it happens. These feelings are a result of our insecurities. I do not know if we are born with this idea of comparing ourselves to each other. To an extent I think it is reasonable because you see someone else praying more, and you can be encouraged to do so. At least that is how it works for me. But, we have to keep in mind we do not begin to pray more to become a better than that person. It is not a competition.
I do think the insecurities that we face as adults root from our environment when we were growing up.
Paul reminds us to have sober judgement of ourselves. Romans 12:3. Paul's warning is not to think of us to highly of ourselves. Another word for sober can be sane. Sane judgement, not tho highly but also not to lowly. We think that only thinking highly of ourselves is wrong. That pride is sin. Yes to an extent, an over flowing amount of pride for what you do and not what God is doing I would say that is wrong. For we can only boast in Christ and him alone.
But, I also think when we do not have sane judgement and we think too lowly we are also doing wrong. We are sons and daughters of the God Almighty. We have been created in his image, God thought we were worthy enough for him to send his only son to die on the cross, so that we may be reconciled with him. We are worthy. We have to remember these things when be think lowly of ourselves.
Like my sister and I, we are different people and God gave me different gifts from her, the body of Christ is the same. There are different gifts and one is not better than the other. And as a community we are suppose to help each other to find these gifts and put them to use for the edification of each other for the praise and worship of Christ.
So remember, sane judgement, do not think to highly or to lowly of ourselves. We are loved in spite of who we are.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Labor Day
First Labor Day off in since 2005. Private school life, you go to school on Federal Holidays. But, we always have a spring break and an Easter break. For two breaks within 2 months, I will go to school on Labor Day. The day started like any other day off. I relax, stay in bed a little longer, and enjoy the nice weather outside. At 12:30 I was to meet people from NewLife Community Church and then drive down to Gary, Indiana. Yes, I now have been to the hometown of the late Michael Jackson. I will have to write that down in my journal as a life accomplishment. So I arrived early and found that the parking lot's gate was closed. What do I do now? I went and drove back and forth until I saw people leaving the parking lot from an ally way. So my next objective was to find how to get to the ally way. After about 15 minutes I found an entrance and was there waiting for people to arrive.
So there was six of us which is an unlucky number because all of our cars only fit 5 people. So I drove with my friend Jessica and Mary in the car with me. With the help of my GPS and the Skyway we arrived in about an hour. It was great driving in downtown Gary.....not really. You walk in to Nick's house and his mom is so welcoming and loving. It was like being back in North Carolina and Southern Hospitality. It was great. the day was filled with laughter, some awkward pauses, we celebrated 4 birthdays with 2 cakes, and Jessica and I went swimming in Lake Michigan. It has been 14 years since I have been in a Great Lake. It was cold and I will not do that again until next summer. But, it was still nice sitting on the beach talking to Molly's (Nick's mom) friends. I was able to talk about the kids, and then Christian living after that. I miss having these conversations, and encouragement from a body of believers.
Praise God for this opportunity, and the support I received from the trip. At the end of the night I was invited to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas. Christmas I found out I will be in NC but Thanksgiving I have a place to go.
Thank you God for providing support and encouragement at the point that I needed it most. You know exactly what I need before I do.
P.S. Pictures will be up later
Love
So there was six of us which is an unlucky number because all of our cars only fit 5 people. So I drove with my friend Jessica and Mary in the car with me. With the help of my GPS and the Skyway we arrived in about an hour. It was great driving in downtown Gary.....not really. You walk in to Nick's house and his mom is so welcoming and loving. It was like being back in North Carolina and Southern Hospitality. It was great. the day was filled with laughter, some awkward pauses, we celebrated 4 birthdays with 2 cakes, and Jessica and I went swimming in Lake Michigan. It has been 14 years since I have been in a Great Lake. It was cold and I will not do that again until next summer. But, it was still nice sitting on the beach talking to Molly's (Nick's mom) friends. I was able to talk about the kids, and then Christian living after that. I miss having these conversations, and encouragement from a body of believers.
Praise God for this opportunity, and the support I received from the trip. At the end of the night I was invited to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas. Christmas I found out I will be in NC but Thanksgiving I have a place to go.
Thank you God for providing support and encouragement at the point that I needed it most. You know exactly what I need before I do.
P.S. Pictures will be up later
Love
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Room
So here are some pictures of my room. Nothing special but I have a bookshelf and pictures of friends and family. Hope you enjoy
Monday, August 30, 2010
Pizza and Runaway Dogs
This weekend involved eating a lot of pizza. Saturday was my first full day off. I got up and had some coffee, and read my bible. I hung out in my room for some along time. Once I emerged I was playing the Wii with the boys. What hardships I have right. But, after a few games I had to run my errands. After the bank I wanted to try this breakfast and lunch only place called Eggsperience. First of all, it has like my favorite food in the name how bad can it be. I had classic bacon and eggs with toast and hash browns, and a cup of some coffee. Well, I have to say the Snack Shop has nothing on this place. The coffee was better here, but give me the greasy spoon any day over the place that follows all health code requirements. Also the service was not that great. I know I was alone and reading a book but I would like you to come and ask me how everything is right. I still gave a large tip and was excited that the price was not too bad compared to the other restaurants on the street.
I went to Dicks Sporting Goods after I ate my brunch. I wanted to see what bikes they had. And they are actually having a sale on the 2010 models. There is the perfect bike for me for less then 300 dollars. I would have to figure out if I can buy it at the end of this week. But, if I buy it I can ride to places around town and ride with the boys. I also would have a bike that I could use later in life as a commuter bike. The bike technician was helpful and very nice. Any question I asked he was able to answer, and he also told me I about where bike races happen on Thursday nights. There are only two weeks left so I might go and watch one of the two nights. He also told me I could bring in my Trek and he would give it check to make sure it is in tiptop shape, with no cost. I guess my talkative manner and interest helped a little there, or he really wants the sale.
After, Dicks I went home and watched my DVD from Netflix, which was MI-5 otherwise known as Spooks. You don’t even know how much I love British Television. I wish I could get BBC not BBCA. Our shows that they give us are not even this year’s series. Well, maybe sometimes but not always. I am really only watching MI-5 because in the seventh series Richard Armitage will be acting in it. One of my favorite actors, he also has stared in Robin Hood, and North & South, both also by BBC.
Saturday night I went over to my friend Jessica’s house, my first time driving down into Chicago. I did not have to drive that far only like 15 minutes down the road, but still within city limits. Good for me. I arrived and the plan was to watch the last preseason game of the Chicago Bears. Which I am pretty sure they lost. But, we got distracted by “The Time-Traveler’s Wife, so we watched that instead.
During the course of the movie, pizza came which was a nice surprise. And while we were eating pizza and watching the movie Jessica’s dogs decided to take a stroll down the street without leeches and anyone walking them. We go out and search for the dogs. Cha Cha went the farthest but was still just in the neighbor’s yard. Mia went across the street to visit the neighbors; she thought they needed to pet her. Once Jessica and I returned to the movie there was no longer an emotional connection and neither of us cried when the sad part happened. (I would say what it is but I do not want to spoil the ending for those who have not seen it.)
Caroline, Jessica's new roommate came home because she was going to spend the night there for the first time. I decided to leave while they were having putting things away in the kitchen roommate time. I stayed out the latest I have ever stayed out since being here, I got home at like 10:50. I am such a wild child.
I went to Dicks Sporting Goods after I ate my brunch. I wanted to see what bikes they had. And they are actually having a sale on the 2010 models. There is the perfect bike for me for less then 300 dollars. I would have to figure out if I can buy it at the end of this week. But, if I buy it I can ride to places around town and ride with the boys. I also would have a bike that I could use later in life as a commuter bike. The bike technician was helpful and very nice. Any question I asked he was able to answer, and he also told me I about where bike races happen on Thursday nights. There are only two weeks left so I might go and watch one of the two nights. He also told me I could bring in my Trek and he would give it check to make sure it is in tiptop shape, with no cost. I guess my talkative manner and interest helped a little there, or he really wants the sale.
After, Dicks I went home and watched my DVD from Netflix, which was MI-5 otherwise known as Spooks. You don’t even know how much I love British Television. I wish I could get BBC not BBCA. Our shows that they give us are not even this year’s series. Well, maybe sometimes but not always. I am really only watching MI-5 because in the seventh series Richard Armitage will be acting in it. One of my favorite actors, he also has stared in Robin Hood, and North & South, both also by BBC.
Saturday night I went over to my friend Jessica’s house, my first time driving down into Chicago. I did not have to drive that far only like 15 minutes down the road, but still within city limits. Good for me. I arrived and the plan was to watch the last preseason game of the Chicago Bears. Which I am pretty sure they lost. But, we got distracted by “The Time-Traveler’s Wife, so we watched that instead.
During the course of the movie, pizza came which was a nice surprise. And while we were eating pizza and watching the movie Jessica’s dogs decided to take a stroll down the street without leeches and anyone walking them. We go out and search for the dogs. Cha Cha went the farthest but was still just in the neighbor’s yard. Mia went across the street to visit the neighbors; she thought they needed to pet her. Once Jessica and I returned to the movie there was no longer an emotional connection and neither of us cried when the sad part happened. (I would say what it is but I do not want to spoil the ending for those who have not seen it.)
Caroline, Jessica's new roommate came home because she was going to spend the night there for the first time. I decided to leave while they were having putting things away in the kitchen roommate time. I stayed out the latest I have ever stayed out since being here, I got home at like 10:50. I am such a wild child.
Friday, August 27, 2010
School
I like the fact that school began this week. I also like the fact that there are friends down the road from us. Lucas started school on Tuesday. The bus picks him up at 8:30ish in front of the house and does not return until 4:00. It is quite fantastic. I do love Lucas, but he can be a handful sometimes. Logan when he starts school up everyday will be picked up the same as Lucas and dropped off at 12:00. Logan is so laid back. I do not want to say I have a favorite but if I could he would be it.
Lucas pushes the boundaries every chance he gets. He will constantly get upset over the smallest things. I do not know if this is an older child thing or a I have been spoiled for the last 7 years thing. But, he likes to tell me that he hates me. My reply will be, "Well, I am okay with that. And I still love you." Some of the tantrums are from knowing that when he cried his mother would give in. But, I am not one to give in because he cries, which he does not like.
Today, was the second day that Lucas and Logan went to school together so I did not have to work until 11:00. I went on a wonderful bike ride on the North Branch Bike trail. I rode 12 miles and it felt amazing. I think I might ride again tomorrow or on Sunday. The whole trail is 20 miles, and you can ride to the Botanical Gardens, and walk around fro free. I want to do that some day soon. I think the next Saturday off would be the best bet. It would have to be a morning to early afternoon event. But, worth it. the Chicago Botanical Gardens are amazing.
Lucas pushes the boundaries every chance he gets. He will constantly get upset over the smallest things. I do not know if this is an older child thing or a I have been spoiled for the last 7 years thing. But, he likes to tell me that he hates me. My reply will be, "Well, I am okay with that. And I still love you." Some of the tantrums are from knowing that when he cried his mother would give in. But, I am not one to give in because he cries, which he does not like.
Today, was the second day that Lucas and Logan went to school together so I did not have to work until 11:00. I went on a wonderful bike ride on the North Branch Bike trail. I rode 12 miles and it felt amazing. I think I might ride again tomorrow or on Sunday. The whole trail is 20 miles, and you can ride to the Botanical Gardens, and walk around fro free. I want to do that some day soon. I think the next Saturday off would be the best bet. It would have to be a morning to early afternoon event. But, worth it. the Chicago Botanical Gardens are amazing.
Playing in the Sand
Yesterday was an interesting day. Logan was not in Kindergarden because the class is separated into two groups by their last name, and attend their first day of school on separate days. Logan's was Wednesday. So Logan and I had Thursday all to ourselves. We went to the park and played together on the swings and on the play sets. I taught him how to pump his legs so he can swing without any help, but that was not fast enough for him. So, I got behind him and gave a few pushes and one slightly dangerous for my head, underdog. After a few jumps off the swing we ran over to the play grounds. I introduced them to a game that I have played with many kids throughout my babysitting days. The ground is no longer land but water infested with sharks. Sometimes they might get really close or they might hang outside the rim of shark repellent if you are lucky enough to play on a play ground equipped with some. I died once because I "accidentally" fell down the slide when we were hiding from the sharks. Thankfully, Logan said I could come back to life again if I could climb up the slide.
Logan then decided to play in the rather large sand box. He began to cover his foot with sand. We lost his foot for a little while but eventually we found it again to walk back home. While he had lost his foot we had a little talk about God. I said,"We know your foot is there, even if we cannot see it. Well, God is always here, even though we cannot see him."
I do not know if it is a fantastic example of God, but I think a 5 year-old's mind can understand what I mean. I kept thinking about that example even more.
Even when we try to cover God up with anything he is still there. Things like relationships, work, general business, etc. God is always there. Sometimes it is hard to remember because we allow ourselves to become overwhelmed by the stresses of this world. But, basic truths such as this one helps us take comfort in our Maker and relax.
Even though we cannot see him, he is always there, apart of us. Praise God the Almighty. How great is our Father's love for us.
Logan then decided to play in the rather large sand box. He began to cover his foot with sand. We lost his foot for a little while but eventually we found it again to walk back home. While he had lost his foot we had a little talk about God. I said,"We know your foot is there, even if we cannot see it. Well, God is always here, even though we cannot see him."
I do not know if it is a fantastic example of God, but I think a 5 year-old's mind can understand what I mean. I kept thinking about that example even more.
Even when we try to cover God up with anything he is still there. Things like relationships, work, general business, etc. God is always there. Sometimes it is hard to remember because we allow ourselves to become overwhelmed by the stresses of this world. But, basic truths such as this one helps us take comfort in our Maker and relax.
Even though we cannot see him, he is always there, apart of us. Praise God the Almighty. How great is our Father's love for us.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saturdays
The last two Saturdays I have spent with Jessica Martensen, a friend I met while in Nicaragua. Jessica will be 23 in about a week so we are the same age. It is such a blessing to know someone here. Last week we went to Bucktown, one of Chicago's many neighborhoods. I met her friends, Barbie and Bobby, which are brother and sister. Their family has been involved with the American Legion, an organization that supports veterans of foreign war. The Bucktown post was having a fundraiser. They were playing bingo and having raffles. Okay, one how often do you play bingo, two, how often do you play bingo with 70 or 80 year-olds, who have defended your country. There are two different ways the night could have gone. I could of made the worst of it and hated the whole event, or I could make the most of it and dive right in. I decided to choose the latter.
I played about seven games of bingo at 25 cents a card, four cards at a time. I almost had a bingo but I accidentally marked a number that was not called. I was so upset, well not really. Then, now this is the exciting part. There was a raffle for a huge salami. I mean I could eat off of that for a month and still have some left over. I spent five dollars on tickets. I was so bummed by the end of the night because I did not win the salami. I wanted it so bad. I also bought tickets for the 500 dollar raffle but did not win either. I am okay with the money I spent, because I am supporting veterans who have fought for my freedom, and the posts will be needed in the future and I have so many friends that are in the military, so I am supporting them too. Oh I also got to draw some of the winners for the cash prize raffle. The whole event was fun, but sadly I did not win anything. Maybe next time. There is also another event on September 12. Maybe the bingo cards will work in my favor. I will keep my fingers cross.
Yesterday, I worked until 1:30. I was not suppose to work but I did to help out the family. I was picked up by Jessica and Laura, another friend from Nicaragua We went downtown. It is beautiful. I saw the bean. No I did not take a photo. I will but, not yet. We walked all around downtown. I saw Lake Michigan, grand park, and several other things I do not remember what they are called. I went to Garretts. Garretts, is famous in Chicago, I was told that the line is normally out the door.Garretts have been selling popcorn since 1949. It was the best popcorn I have ever eaten. The tree of us shared a small Chicago Mix, which is their caramel popcorn mixed with chedder popcorn. I still have some popcorn left from their small, and we all had our fill. I would make that on the top 5 places to visit in Chicago so far.
We continued to walk around and we went to buy Frango mints. These mints are also famous to this area. After tasting them you will know why they are famous. Okay, to buy the mints we had to go into the first Marshal Fields, which is now a Macy's. This store is an entire city block, and several stories high. It was amazing, the women's shoes had its own half a floor. I picked up a pair of slipper shoes, they were 230 dollars, I put them down saying, "I can't even afford to pick these up."
We walked some more and went to a pizza place. This placed was packed. We had a 25 minute wait and then a 45 minute wait for our pizza. The wait was worth it. This was my first time eating Chicago style pizza. I love it. It was the best pizza I have ever eaten. I was so happy. I had a beer and pizza with friends. We finally left after talking and eating for a few hours and I got home around 9:45ish. I walked in and Maria was surprised I was home. She thought I would be out longer. I am not a late night person, and because of my room with the light, I have been getting up at 5:30-6:00 on my own. So I was tired. Maria said she would be out late all the time when she was my age, I told her that I did not really stay out late when I was in college, why would I now. Maybe that will change but at the moment, when I have to work the next morning at 8 I need to get up earlier so I can spend sometime with God.
God has been so faithful to me. He has given me friends in a new city, a flexible family because I am flexible, and the opportunity to grow outside my comfort zone. Pray that my social anxiety will calm down. I miss you all and I love you.
I played about seven games of bingo at 25 cents a card, four cards at a time. I almost had a bingo but I accidentally marked a number that was not called. I was so upset, well not really. Then, now this is the exciting part. There was a raffle for a huge salami. I mean I could eat off of that for a month and still have some left over. I spent five dollars on tickets. I was so bummed by the end of the night because I did not win the salami. I wanted it so bad. I also bought tickets for the 500 dollar raffle but did not win either. I am okay with the money I spent, because I am supporting veterans who have fought for my freedom, and the posts will be needed in the future and I have so many friends that are in the military, so I am supporting them too. Oh I also got to draw some of the winners for the cash prize raffle. The whole event was fun, but sadly I did not win anything. Maybe next time. There is also another event on September 12. Maybe the bingo cards will work in my favor. I will keep my fingers cross.
Yesterday, I worked until 1:30. I was not suppose to work but I did to help out the family. I was picked up by Jessica and Laura, another friend from Nicaragua We went downtown. It is beautiful. I saw the bean. No I did not take a photo. I will but, not yet. We walked all around downtown. I saw Lake Michigan, grand park, and several other things I do not remember what they are called. I went to Garretts. Garretts, is famous in Chicago, I was told that the line is normally out the door.Garretts have been selling popcorn since 1949. It was the best popcorn I have ever eaten. The tree of us shared a small Chicago Mix, which is their caramel popcorn mixed with chedder popcorn. I still have some popcorn left from their small, and we all had our fill. I would make that on the top 5 places to visit in Chicago so far.
We continued to walk around and we went to buy Frango mints. These mints are also famous to this area. After tasting them you will know why they are famous. Okay, to buy the mints we had to go into the first Marshal Fields, which is now a Macy's. This store is an entire city block, and several stories high. It was amazing, the women's shoes had its own half a floor. I picked up a pair of slipper shoes, they were 230 dollars, I put them down saying, "I can't even afford to pick these up."
We walked some more and went to a pizza place. This placed was packed. We had a 25 minute wait and then a 45 minute wait for our pizza. The wait was worth it. This was my first time eating Chicago style pizza. I love it. It was the best pizza I have ever eaten. I was so happy. I had a beer and pizza with friends. We finally left after talking and eating for a few hours and I got home around 9:45ish. I walked in and Maria was surprised I was home. She thought I would be out longer. I am not a late night person, and because of my room with the light, I have been getting up at 5:30-6:00 on my own. So I was tired. Maria said she would be out late all the time when she was my age, I told her that I did not really stay out late when I was in college, why would I now. Maybe that will change but at the moment, when I have to work the next morning at 8 I need to get up earlier so I can spend sometime with God.
God has been so faithful to me. He has given me friends in a new city, a flexible family because I am flexible, and the opportunity to grow outside my comfort zone. Pray that my social anxiety will calm down. I miss you all and I love you.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Jesus Doing Backflips
Because I am up before I actually start work in the mornings the boys will come into my room or I am in the kitchen reading my bible and half way watching out for them Logan will sometimes begin to ask questions and I answer them. Mainly, the questions are about if Jesus can do a backflip, or can he turn me green. I tell him that Jesus can do anything, even turn you green if you needed to be, and that if you accept Jesus into your heart then he will do hundreds of backflips. Logan is more curious then Lucas.
The other day is was about to rain. Lucas loves the rain. He will stand and the glass door all night to watch the lightening hit. On this particular morning I began telling him the about Noah's arc and the flood. He listened and asked questions, But I did not think he really listened. Until today, he was getting something out of the cabinet and Logan was talking about rainbows and Lucas chimed in and said that Rainbows are God's promise that he would not destroy the earth by a flood. With complete confidence in what he was saying. I do not know how much believing was in the statement but at least he was listening to me.
The other day is was about to rain. Lucas loves the rain. He will stand and the glass door all night to watch the lightening hit. On this particular morning I began telling him the about Noah's arc and the flood. He listened and asked questions, But I did not think he really listened. Until today, he was getting something out of the cabinet and Logan was talking about rainbows and Lucas chimed in and said that Rainbows are God's promise that he would not destroy the earth by a flood. With complete confidence in what he was saying. I do not know how much believing was in the statement but at least he was listening to me.
The Glen
Logan, 5
Lucas 7
The Glen is a park that has a huge sand box, fountains for kids to play in, a play ground, a maze and an ice cream truck that sits in the parking lot. What more could a kid ask for.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Chicago Botanical Gardens
The boy's Nono (Grandfather) and Nona (Grandmother) took the boys and I to the Chicago Botanical Gardens. 
Lucas, 7, at the Chicago Botanical Gardens, Monday 16
Giggles and Nerf Guns
Yesterday the boys met new friends. After we finished our errands for the day there was a knock on the door. There stood two little boys and their mother. Down the street there is a family with three boys, Gavin 2, Dylan 5, and Aiden 6. They wanted to play with Logan and Lucas. So almost immediately the two boys run into the play room and begin to play. The mother left and so I adopted two new boys for a while. They played well and hard together. After the day was over the boys were tired and ready for bed.
For dinner I cooked what my mom calls Mexican Chicken. It is really only some peppers, an onion, and chicken breasts put in a crocpot and cooked all day. But, the in the afternoon I made flour tortillas. They are so good. The boys were suppose to help but their new friends came by when I was starting to roll the tortillas out. Oh rolling pin no longer needed. I used a cup because the rolling pin is packed in the garage at the moment. It was quite a sight. :)
Today is Logan's 5th birthday!!! We began the day with opening a present from me and a cheese omlette that we shared. Then we went over to the King's house, the three boys down the road, and then off to the Park. The mom Alissa is very nice so we talked and had fun. As the day went on the number of boys I watched ranged from 5 to 2 depending on the situation. And then, I had a two hour break. Oh my goodness, it was fantastic. I swept, took a shower, and read. It was amazing. I had two hours of doing whatever I wanted. I love that the kids have friends down the road!!!!
Tomorrow we are celebrating Logan's B-day with a bowling party. It will be fun i think. I get to make cupcakes and then the boys get to add frosting and sprinkles.
For dinner I cooked what my mom calls Mexican Chicken. It is really only some peppers, an onion, and chicken breasts put in a crocpot and cooked all day. But, the in the afternoon I made flour tortillas. They are so good. The boys were suppose to help but their new friends came by when I was starting to roll the tortillas out. Oh rolling pin no longer needed. I used a cup because the rolling pin is packed in the garage at the moment. It was quite a sight. :)
Today is Logan's 5th birthday!!! We began the day with opening a present from me and a cheese omlette that we shared. Then we went over to the King's house, the three boys down the road, and then off to the Park. The mom Alissa is very nice so we talked and had fun. As the day went on the number of boys I watched ranged from 5 to 2 depending on the situation. And then, I had a two hour break. Oh my goodness, it was fantastic. I swept, took a shower, and read. It was amazing. I had two hours of doing whatever I wanted. I love that the kids have friends down the road!!!!
Tomorrow we are celebrating Logan's B-day with a bowling party. It will be fun i think. I get to make cupcakes and then the boys get to add frosting and sprinkles.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Patience
I have been reading Romans this week. What a book. I have not been faithful in my time with God and beginning again feeds me so much. I was reading Romans and then I began writing a letter to a friend. I was commiting on how the boys are behaving a little better every day, but when they are tired their old habits come back. They begin to argue and hit one another. I try to have patience with them because I know they are tired but I still have to separate them and sometimes send them to their rooms.
This made me think about how about God and how he is patient with us. We get tired. We struggle through things and our defensives break down, and that sin we have been struggling with happens again. But God is always patient with us. He knows we are tired. And like the boys, I want them to behave properly, God wants us to follow Christ's example and behave like him. And sometimes we are separated and put into different rooms until we cool down. But, God is always there supporting us and encouraging us to do better.
I have heard people say that you begin to understand God as a father when you have children, and they are right. God has shown me how patient he is and how much he is there for us when we are hurting, even if it is only a stubbed toe or a paper cut.
This made me think about how about God and how he is patient with us. We get tired. We struggle through things and our defensives break down, and that sin we have been struggling with happens again. But God is always patient with us. He knows we are tired. And like the boys, I want them to behave properly, God wants us to follow Christ's example and behave like him. And sometimes we are separated and put into different rooms until we cool down. But, God is always there supporting us and encouraging us to do better.
I have heard people say that you begin to understand God as a father when you have children, and they are right. God has shown me how patient he is and how much he is there for us when we are hurting, even if it is only a stubbed toe or a paper cut.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Adaptation and Flexibility Are Key
The family seems really nice and the boys are adorable. Lucas the oldest is reserved and very into the weather. Logan the younger brother is, it seems like another younger sibling.
They play well together for the most part. And then there are those times that they hurt each other and want to take revenge for the scratch accidently or not. I am trying to teach them that hitting is bad, and especially if you do it in anger. Logan has a problem with that. He gets mad very quickly and then will hit. And within five minutes the anger has passed.
Even after a week he has begun stopped hitting as much as he did on Monday. With time-outs and being sent to his room, I think he is understanding a little more that hitting is bad.
Lucas has a problem of blowing things out of proportion. Everything becomes life or death and personal. He thinks that everything Logan does is to pick or make fun of him. I have seen an improvement of that as well. I do not know if it has been a matter or attention or not but, I believe I am making a difference.
Like I said Lucas is into the weather, I mean he watches the weather channel all the time. When we went on a bike ride on Monday he pointed out where flooding would happen on streets and at parks. He will tell me when it will rain, or not. It is really funny how excited he gets about the weather. Logan is all about flips and running around. He is a bundle of energy that never has to recharge his batteries.
They play well together for the most part. And then there are those times that they hurt each other and want to take revenge for the scratch accidently or not. I am trying to teach them that hitting is bad, and especially if you do it in anger. Logan has a problem with that. He gets mad very quickly and then will hit. And within five minutes the anger has passed.
Even after a week he has begun stopped hitting as much as he did on Monday. With time-outs and being sent to his room, I think he is understanding a little more that hitting is bad.
Lucas has a problem of blowing things out of proportion. Everything becomes life or death and personal. He thinks that everything Logan does is to pick or make fun of him. I have seen an improvement of that as well. I do not know if it has been a matter or attention or not but, I believe I am making a difference.
Like I said Lucas is into the weather, I mean he watches the weather channel all the time. When we went on a bike ride on Monday he pointed out where flooding would happen on streets and at parks. He will tell me when it will rain, or not. It is really funny how excited he gets about the weather. Logan is all about flips and running around. He is a bundle of energy that never has to recharge his batteries.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Monday
Last night was an easy, chill night. I had dinner with the family. I moved most of my stuff into the new house and the other more immediate things into my room. I watched some TV and had dinner with the family. Monday I start work at 10:00 and end t 3:00, so it will not be that bad. The family seems really nice and the boys are adorable. Lucas the oldest is reserved and very into the weather. Logan the younger brother is, it seems like another younger sibling.
They play well together for the most part. And then there are those times that they hurt each other and want to take revenge for the scratch accidently or not. I am trying to teach them that hitting is bad, and especially if you do it in anger. Logan has a problem with that. He gets mad very quickly and then will hit. And within five minutes the anger has passed.
Even after a week he has begun stopped hitting as much as he did on Monday. With time-outs and being sent to his room, I think he is understanding a little more that hitting is bad.
Lucas has a problem of blowing things out of proportion. Everything becomes life or death and personal. He thinks that everything Logan does is to pick or make fun of him. I have seen an improvement of that as well. I do not know if it has been a matter or attention or not but, I believe I am making a difference.
Like I said Lucas is into the weather, I mean he watches the weather channel all the time. When we went on a bike ride on Monday he pointed out where flooding would happen on streets and at parks. He will tell me when it will rain, or not. It is really funny how excited he gets about the weather. Logan is all about flips and running around. He is a bundle of energy that never has to recharge his batteries.
They play well together for the most part. And then there are those times that they hurt each other and want to take revenge for the scratch accidently or not. I am trying to teach them that hitting is bad, and especially if you do it in anger. Logan has a problem with that. He gets mad very quickly and then will hit. And within five minutes the anger has passed.
Even after a week he has begun stopped hitting as much as he did on Monday. With time-outs and being sent to his room, I think he is understanding a little more that hitting is bad.
Lucas has a problem of blowing things out of proportion. Everything becomes life or death and personal. He thinks that everything Logan does is to pick or make fun of him. I have seen an improvement of that as well. I do not know if it has been a matter or attention or not but, I believe I am making a difference.
Like I said Lucas is into the weather, I mean he watches the weather channel all the time. When we went on a bike ride on Monday he pointed out where flooding would happen on streets and at parks. He will tell me when it will rain, or not. It is really funny how excited he gets about the weather. Logan is all about flips and running around. He is a bundle of energy that never has to recharge his batteries.
Glenview
Yesterday's drive was a long one. The hours were the same but, it just seemed like it was longer. I left London around 8:30 and was on my way. I got to Louisville, and waved to the fair city that I have been to and enjoyed a time before. I follow the interstate around the city and I start heading North. I was in Indiana and I did not even know it until mile marker 10. The state border is covered with concrete and cars. I headed to Indianapolis and again waved to a city I have spent time in and loved. I was tempted to go down to Borders and buy a book but, I was on a tight schedule to get to Chicago.
I continue on my way thinking about lunch and trying to find a place to stop. I almost completely forgot that I need to check my gas. I was maybe a little lower than a forth of the tank. I needed to stop. So I got off the interstate and found a gas station. Then I headed a little bit further and found a Wendy's.
Okay I do not know what it was but, everyone and there mother were there. I waited about forty-five minutes to order. It was crazy. After I ate my Plain Chicken Fillet I got back in my car and drove on... and drove on... and drove on...
Until I reached Chicago. I am so not used to the traffic. There are so many cars. I am so glad I do not have to drive much in the city. I also had to pay two tolls. I was not expecting two. One I paid and it was only a buck fifty. Okay I could handle that. The next one which was maybe a mile away was for the skyway and it was three dollars. I freaked out, I only had a dollar fifty with me left. Luckily, the gentlemen allowed me to pay with credit. You can pay tolls with your credit card, how weird is that. No matter how weird it was it saved my life, well not my life but, you know what I mean.
I kept driving a little more and finally got out side the city and in the the suburbs and into Glenview. Beautiful area, plenty or streets for cycling. Nice green grass, and sidewalks everywhere. It is fantastic.
I found the house, and Bob, the father, was mowing the lawn, and then I passed the house because I did not know I was there until it was too late to turn. So I turned around drove back, and freaked Bob out because he had no clue who I was at first glance. Maria came out of the house and gave me hug and I felt so loved already.
I continue on my way thinking about lunch and trying to find a place to stop. I almost completely forgot that I need to check my gas. I was maybe a little lower than a forth of the tank. I needed to stop. So I got off the interstate and found a gas station. Then I headed a little bit further and found a Wendy's.
Okay I do not know what it was but, everyone and there mother were there. I waited about forty-five minutes to order. It was crazy. After I ate my Plain Chicken Fillet I got back in my car and drove on... and drove on... and drove on...
Until I reached Chicago. I am so not used to the traffic. There are so many cars. I am so glad I do not have to drive much in the city. I also had to pay two tolls. I was not expecting two. One I paid and it was only a buck fifty. Okay I could handle that. The next one which was maybe a mile away was for the skyway and it was three dollars. I freaked out, I only had a dollar fifty with me left. Luckily, the gentlemen allowed me to pay with credit. You can pay tolls with your credit card, how weird is that. No matter how weird it was it saved my life, well not my life but, you know what I mean.
I kept driving a little more and finally got out side the city and in the the suburbs and into Glenview. Beautiful area, plenty or streets for cycling. Nice green grass, and sidewalks everywhere. It is fantastic.
I found the house, and Bob, the father, was mowing the lawn, and then I passed the house because I did not know I was there until it was too late to turn. So I turned around drove back, and freaked Bob out because he had no clue who I was at first glance. Maria came out of the house and gave me hug and I felt so loved already.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
London
I have always dreamed of going to London. I dreamed of walking the streets, shopping, going to pubs and maybe meeting my favorite British actor. So I am in London, London Kentucky. Well it is not the same as London, England but I was able to walk to dinner from my hotel. Tomorrow, I am driving the rest of the way to Chicago. Today was a day for firsts. First time driving on interstate 75, first time checking into a hotel myself, first time driving to Chicago, and first time in London. :) So after this day of firsts I need to sleep..............zzzzzzz.....................:)
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